Remy Ma is telling her fans about what life behind bars is like and how she’s coping while serving her 8-year sentence.
Remy has been behind bars for about a year, but she said it seems much longer.
“It feels like forever since Remy Mackie, formerly known as Remy Smith, has been incarcerated,” she wrote in her Global Grind blog. That name change made us pause since the new moniker could mean that she and Papoose really did get married.
Anyway, the “Conceited” rapper said she finds herself thinking about what she was up to one, two and even five years ago. However, she said those things are hard to remember until she imagines what she’d be doing now if she were still free.
One thing she’d probably be doing is laying down tracks because she has more than enough material for a new album.
“Not being able to record is stressful, not because I’m a rapper, but because that was my way of venting and expressing myself. So I write a lot,” she said. “Now I have a callous on my finger from holding a pen. I guess I got used to texting my rhymes!”
Remy’s also been asked to serve as an example by joining the Youth Assistance Program (YAP for short). The program brings kids from the hood to the prison, so they can experience what it’s like to be incarcerated.
YAP coordinators think having Remy be part of the program would show the kids that anyone can get locked up.
“I however feel that it’ll be more of the kids wanting to see Remy Ma the rapper, and, because of that, they won’t get that I’m actually in jail. So, I’m still contemplating,” she said. “If I figure out a way for them to actually get it, that this is really not a place you would ever want to be whether for 8 years, 8 months, or 8 minutes, then I’ll do it.”
She signed off to readers with one final thought, stating, “Everyone in prison isn’t innocent but everyone in prison isn’t guilty. So whether you end up here on purpose or by accident, the pain you’re feeling is still the same. And I can quote a lot ‘gangsters’ by saying that, ‘I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.’”
– Sonya Eskridge