Nicki Minaj admits suicidal thoughts

    Nicki Minaj has revealed that she was so dedicated to her dream that she was willing to die for it.

    Nicki wasn’t always the wild success that she is today, and when things looked bleak for her career, she considered taking her own life. 

    “I kept having doors slammed in my face. I felt like nothing was working. I had moved out on my own, and here I was thinking I’d have to go home. It was just one dead end after another," she revealed to Cosmopolitan. "At one point, I was, like, ‘What would happen if I just didn’t wake up?’ That’s how I felt. Like maybe I should just take my life?"

    She didn’t want to be famous just for herself; she explained that she wanted to use her success to help her family. "I would pray to God to make me famous so that I could buy my mother a huge house," Nicki said.

    Nicki has always wanted to protect her mother, who sufferd a very volatile relationship with the rapper’s father. Nicki even recalled one incident that scarred her for years.

    “He would beg, cry, stalk us," the FeMC explained. "One time, he pulled my mother out of a car and dragged her for two blocks. After that, I had a phobia about unlocked doors. Anywhere my mother and I were, I made sure the door was locked, because that was my only way to protect her.”

    This summer, Nicki was in the news for her own explosive relationship with a man named Sarafee Samuels. The two got in a fight at a hotel that resulted in the Nicki’s lip gettig cut.

    When it comes to men and her career, though, Nicki has made it a point to get by on her talent alone. Nicki never wanted a reputation for sleeping her way to the top, despite her sexy image.

    “When you come into the business as a woman, you have to pay a lot of mind games because the men tend to be very aggressive," Nicki said. "It’s like chess—you have to protect your goods. Had I just started screwing the guys, it would’ve been over because they never would’ve taken me seriously.”

    What does she look for in terms of man that will get her heart beat thumping like "Super Bass," though? Nicki said she is more about what a dude’s got going on upstairs—but not in the way that one might think.

    “I do like a dope nose profile, one that’s straight on the side. And I like full lips. I’ve never kissed someone who didn’t have full lips.”



    —Sonya Eskridge




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